With all the suicides recently in the news and social media one ignorant comment is one too many and I couldn’t help but come across a few so that of course led me to writing this post. Look, I’m not going to hide that I’ve had suicidal thoughts myself in the past. And although it’s been years I also don’t pretend to be overconfident that I could never have them again. Why do you think I fight so hard to retrain my brain from getting stuck in my negative depression cloud??? Why do I admit consistent psychotherapy helps me even when I’m feeling “pretty good.” Even if I’m not suicidal I do still have my moments where I feel stuck in a nightmare or screwed in a life I can’t get out of because I don’t want to give up but my emotions sometimes get so riled up that I wish I could! But I don’t. And I’ll fight hard to keep trying. BUT I also won’t even begin to assume that what I do is going to work for everyone else or tell anyone that, “Oh, you just have to stay positive,” or, “It’ll all be okay.” Reality is it sometimes is not okay which is a big reason to seek professional help. But then there’s this horrible nasty stigma that if you get help with mental or emotional issues that you’re weak. Or CRAZY. So guess what, that doesn’t help anyone who needs the help to be encouraged in getting it. It takes SUPER STRENGTH and BEAUTIFUL HUMILITY to seek out help. To acknowledge it. To be okay with and willing to try hearing and then accepting a diagnosis. Then it doesn't end there, it takes daily work to keep fighting and trying to manage your mental illness. And those that don’t for whatever reason don’t deserve to be looked down upon or talked about negatively. They just happened to not get the help they needed at the time they needed it. I believe in God and the God I know and love is understanding and knows us better than ourselves. I trust Him and his judgement of people. But that’s just it, it’s not up to us to judge so please, please, please, can we try harder to stop judging?!?!
This ones dedicated to those who have committed suicide or are currently struggling with suicidal thoughts.🌹I am so sorry for the pain and constant internal fight. My thoughts and prayers are with you all. #pinterestfind via Esra Kozan #thursdaythoughts UPDATE: seriously, #anthonybourdain too?!? Man. Btw, I still get sad about #robinwilliams 🖤 .. #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthblogger #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillnessawareness #outofthedarkness #keeptalkingmentalhealth #livingwithmentalillness #depressionsucks #depressionisreal #katespade #restinpeace